Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Changes


 Black Locust begins to bloom lighting up the surrounding hillsides.







 Watching in the treetops for signs of this tiny bird, an Indigo Bunting flits right in front of me.







He left the doctor office in a blurry cloud. Of all the times one would wish to have someone along, this would have been it. A series of tests told them he had tumors in his lungs and brain. He really hadn’t been able to listen well enough, maybe because he didn’t want to hear what they were really saying. It just didn’t seem right, he had never smoked during his life. He felt he ate well and always watched illness, going to the doctor if it was over a few days. He couldn’t remember the last time he had missed a day of work from being sick. They told him to get his affairs in order and come back in a week to decide what path his treatments would be. It was hard to determine whether to laugh or cry, his feelings were so mixed up. Perhaps if he called his daughter, she would give him some advice. Maybe he would do that the next day he thought.


Driving home some tears welled in his eyes and he pulled over to the side of the road. He sat and sobbed for a moment and laughed at feeling sorry for himself. He took hold of the wheel and decided to go past the coffee shop to see if anyone was around to talk with. Pulling in he looked around for any familiar cars and didn’t see anyone. He was hesitant to go in, still feeling sad. He went and sat down in his favorite booth and picked up a newspaper sitting on the table. He couldn’t even concentrate on reading it was all nonsense to him. All he could think about was what the doctor said about his affairs. A waitress brought over the coffeepot and asked him if he wanted a refill. He smiled and said yes to take a cup with him. She asked where all his friends were and he just shrugged. She asked if something was wrong and he told her not much, other than he had found out he had cancer. She looked at him unable to speak, and tears filled her eyes. He told her not to worry, they had pills for it and took his cup out the door with him. She followed him to the door and asked if he wanted a hug. They held each other and both didn’t know when to let go. Leaving she told him she would look for him the next day, and hoped all would be better.


On the ride home the warmth of the waitress filled his heart with joy. It had been a long time since anyone had given him a hug and he kept thinking how nice it felt. He had forgotten about that bit of tenderness that was part of many people’s lives. The last hug he had passed out was to a calf that was having a hard time being born. When it finally came along he felt like a new father and yelled with joy. He talked how pretty she was for days, and now he was in a daze with mixed feelings. He saddled his horse and rode out to talk to his herd. The path was well worn to get into the gate that led him into their pasture. All turned when he approached and he was at lose for words and just mooed at them. It seemed like they sensed his sadness and wanted to give him a quick fix. A few calves were frolicking and he called out to them to keep having fun. He rode around a few times before stopping and just watching their solitude. He sat for a long time before he thought about his health problems again. Leaving he thanked them for the kind words and gentle thoughts.

16 comments:

  1. Yay! I can comment!

    Love the black locust blooms. Mine are blooming too! :)

    Is everything okay? Your post today is a bit concerning. Hugs -- Nancy

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  2. Well, this one hit home as I was just thinking about my BIL who died last December from lung cancer.

    the black locust blooms are beautiful.

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  3. Hi Steve, Yes---everyday in Spring does bring changes... God's beautiful world is just awesome..

    The woodpeckers have been busy, haven't they? We have a similar tree here...

    Love the Indigo Bunting... Wish I would see one here.

    Have a wonderful day.
    Betsy

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  4. The black locust blossoms are beautiful. And it's always a treat to see an indigo bunting. I hope none of today's story has application in your life...unless it's the hug. :)

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  5. OH! DAISY eyeballs and wonderful water waves...my favorites!!
    Hope you're doing okay....hugs to you.

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  6. What a pretty story. I have often thought how a small hug or word can bring someone so much unexpected comfort. I don't think we can ever give too much love, even if at times it hurts. xoxo

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  7. This is a poignant story. Working through his shock and grief at the news of his cancer... you have told it beautifully. And the warmth of the waitress who comforted him is a comfort to all. Very nicely written.

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  8. The story made me think of my sister in law who was recently diagnosed with cancer. She's already gone through two rounds of chemo and the doctors are very hopeful.

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  9. I agree with Allison, we can never give too much love. A beautiful story.

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  10. I love the daisies and that long dock over the water. That tree with the woodpecker holes is real neat. Wild flowers are always pretty. I'm glad you got to see that Indigo Bunting. I'm pretty sure that is what I saw that one day also. Never saw it again. I don't see the Orioles anymore either. Guess they were just passing through.
    Your story is a bit sad but I understand very well. Take care.

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  11. Its the small things that mean the most :)

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  12. wow, what a tale. You write in a way that draws me in. Sad, yet a treasure. Lovely to see your photos too.

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  13. Oh, I love the quote you have on your side bar about putting your friends in the best light, wonderful.

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  14. Wonderful shots.. and that story was sad - and yet tender.

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  15. lovely pics...and your writing really struck me as i often retreat into the natural world when life becomes too much...thanks for stopping in today!

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  16. Claude said...

    Hello Steve !
    Yesterday I had some problems to leave a comment on your blog and on other ones. This morning too but I founded a solution.
    I told you I love all your beautiful photos.

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