Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Driving home some tears welled in his eyes and he pulled over to the side of the road. He sat and sobbed for a moment and laughed at feeling sorry for himself. He took hold of the wheel and decided to go past the coffee shop to see if anyone was around to talk with. Pulling in he looked around for any familiar cars and didn’t see anyone. He was hesitant to go in, still feeling sad. He went and sat down in his favorite booth and picked up a newspaper sitting on the table. He couldn’t even concentrate on reading it was all nonsense to him. All he could think about was what the doctor said about his affairs. A waitress brought over the coffeepot and asked him if he wanted a refill. He smiled and said yes to take a cup with him. She asked where all his friends were and he just shrugged. She asked if something was wrong and he told her not much, other than he had found out he had cancer. She looked at him unable to speak, and tears filled her eyes. He told her not to worry, they had pills for it and took his cup out the door with him. She followed him to the door and asked if he wanted a hug. They held each other and both didn’t know when to let go. Leaving she told him she would look for him the next day, and hoped all would be better.
On the ride home the warmth of the waitress filled his heart with joy. It had been a long time since anyone had given him a hug and he kept thinking how nice it felt. He had forgotten about that bit of tenderness that was part of many people’s lives. The last hug he had passed out was to a calf that was having a hard time being born. When it finally came along he felt like a new father and yelled with joy. He talked how pretty she was for days, and now he was in a daze with mixed feelings. He saddled his horse and rode out to talk to his herd. The path was well worn to get into the gate that led him into their pasture. All turned when he approached and he was at lose for words and just mooed at them. It seemed like they sensed his sadness and wanted to give him a quick fix. A few calves were frolicking and he called out to them to keep having fun. He rode around a few times before stopping and just watching their solitude. He sat for a long time before he thought about his health problems again. Leaving he thanked them for the kind words and gentle thoughts.